I’m Shy in Everyday Life, but I Fantasize About Taking Control of Him in Bed

I 26f want to book a hotel room and have a man come for maybe an hour or so just to be blindfolded and tied up on a chair while I use him in anyway I want. I’m talking kind of like exploring his body and doing things like edging etc and then using him like my own personal toy. He wouldn’t be allowed to cum until I’m ready for him to deep inside of me and I’ll keep using him even after he has cum. Then to finish it off I want to have him still blindfolded and hands tied behind his back and kneeling on the floor next to me while I sit down and stroke his hair. He isn’t allowed to talk unless I tell him too and he isn’t allowed to move unless I order it.

I’m a super shy and submissive person in my day to day life but when it comes to sexual stuff I’m the boss. Not in a mean way tho I’d like to think I’m very caring and sweet and not a huge fan of giving out pain. I really want to make this fantasy a reality it gets me so wet thinking about it tbh